the disconnecting count of days of fading away

cardiff by the sea..

Rambled at 2:54 PM on Wednesday, December 31, 2008 | Haloscan

well its the last day of 2008..

its been a good yet bad year for me..i now know that she will always be the type of girl dat i would ever want..after numerous relationships..it just felt so right..eventhough the relationship has ended..yes i was devastated..im not good wif break ups as all my frens noe...but its gonna be a new year..n i hope u'll succeed in ur future relationships n in everything u do..just dont be a stranger k..

ive learned that its not clever to follow your heart when riding ur bike..cos ive learned it the hard way..knowing it was raining, the road was wet..yet i still was quite fast into going a filter lane corner..n yup kelepap jatuh..n its an expensive lesson too..but i thank god my life wasnt taken away..use ur brain more often k khairi..

one of my main problems this year was money..i was badly in debt..soo many things to pay..n the government pays me only 470 per month..but ive learned to deal wif it n yes im happy i dun haf anymore debts..except for my bike repairs dat is..argh

im not really good wif new year resolutions..but there are things i hope will improve into the new year..

i dunno wether im still ready for a new relationship yet..i tried..but my heart n mind just wasnt in the right place..i definately need to be safer on the roads..yes i still like the feeling of going into corners n speeding through the expressways..but i haf to do it after thinking it through first..haha..i certainly will have to find ways of saving money..i know i spend alot of money on entertainment..its not like its a bad thing..but well just dont spend it all away i guess..but this coming year..i really just want to put my life back on track..i need to pamper myself more..shop more..

n since its a new year, i just want to apologise to anyone who has a grudge on me for something i did wrong kepe..im sorry..hell i noe im not a saint..but hehe well we do make mistakes..whatever it is i truly didnt meant it..

can you cure this loneliness in my heart, euphoria..

im going to end this years entry wif a pic of me n my mom..very recent pic..just bcos i love her n she will always be in my heart forever..i love u mom =)

she looks annoyed haha..

cheers to a new year everyone..

those were the times..

Rambled at 3:27 AM on Tuesday, December 23, 2008 | Haloscan

gawd i just miss the old days..the ite days dat is..

the usuals who go to skool

obviously one of the shortest..haha

despite all the drama, i still had lots of fun wif everyone..one of the most enjoyable moments in my life..i just miss everyone..

the world you love

Rambled at 1:54 PM on Monday, December 22, 2008 | Haloscan

well for the past few days been lazying off at home..haha MC mah!
now i dunno where to get the 1K+ for my bike repairs..rabak dok motor..and when i finally settled all my debt another problem comes along..but i haf to learn to accept everything..everything happens for a reason i guess..

but after all this, i still wanna join a track day at the tuas circuit hehe..maybe even join a race..the legal way at least =)its all about da passion which keeps me choosing the motorbike..yes i do wanna have a car..but not nw..still too young hehe..

recently watched Yes man wif the guys..haha been awhile since i went to the movies n to start off wif dis was really nice..i enjoyed it..n buto bom ko takmo beli tu helmet eh..

time to start saving money ey..

corner basah!!

where i wanna be

kecoh kecoh!

alif

falah stress, me n lemang ponyo haha

watching races makes you happy

the aftermath..(the white-ish wound had to be covered cos too serious haha)

in pain

Rambled at 10:01 PM on Monday, December 15, 2008 | Haloscan

well if u guys didnt noe..i just got into an accident on 14 DEC..which was yesterday frm when im updating rite nw..its really sad cos 14 dec is my bday..im pretty much okay..except for the wounds of cos..but im scared cos it feels as though i tore my ligament..n i really dun want dat to happen..lemang has pics of my battle scars n its pretty disgusting..haha..sigh..my bike is a total wreck..rabak gila sak..dis yr is just nt working out for me..but i will get through it..but just no more pls..ive been through enough..

i'll always remember 14 DEC 2008 the day i had my first n really bad accident..

taking your chances to feel again

Rambled at 3:12 AM on Monday, December 08, 2008 | Haloscan

Apalah dengan nasib aku..
apa yang ku buat untuk mendapat ni semua..
ku cuba tukar tetapi ini yang ku dpt?
ku lebih menolong tetapi mendapat lebih masalah..

this year has been a really bad year for me..
straight to the top of the list..

aimless endeavour

Rambled at 12:39 AM on Wednesday, December 03, 2008 | Haloscan

Its weird how the voice of richard ashcroft is making me feel so nice tonight :\

Im really tired of people putting me down..especially when ur getting it from ur own parents..
its hard especially when they have never supported me in any of my interest..
everything is a negative to them..garh..

hey there was a dead body beside me a few days ago..haha..n i wish i hadnt seen it..but den nk buat cmne kan suddenly a car brake in front of me..first i saw the damaged car..n it was REALLY badly damaged..then the body in the next lane...kiwakk..the head all bloody..da lah oozing everywhere...bluek...

ive moved on but i would be lying if i say i didnt miss you..cos i do..
n if this is the way u want it to be then thats up to you..
remember the things u said at mount faber?

recently i went to c dis beauty..

yup ur nice an all..but i still love mine =)

ive really got nothin much to say tonight so i'll leave wif some pictures...

the view..