the disconnecting count of days of fading away

when did your heart go missing

Rambled at 1:58 AM on Tuesday, November 18, 2008 | Haloscan

catering to an illusion seems great..

i need sleep..
haha yes i really do..
ive been occupying myself so much till i dun even haf time to sleep..
everythings been great so far..
the nite outs..
the karaoke nites..or nite haha..
the frens..
but there is one thing..
the money..
haha i just cant seem to help myself when it comes to money..
i earn so little yet i spend as if i earn 10k per month - sarcasticly though..
its been a problem of mine eversince i learned to spend money..

been playing lots of football lately..
till one point i played untill it felt i was gonna faint any moment..
haha but it felt as though i lost 10kg..
but mcm sama je..haha
i just think im one of those people who can lose weight but still look da same..
but i dun wanna =(
it wud be nice if i can change abit..
its not that im nt happy wif myself but it wud be NICER..
so now i need a financial planner and fitness trainer..
anyone up for the job?
i'll pay =) hehe

oh n i just dun get wif my com and its internet connection..
its just so bad argh!
and the wireless modem is just in the next room..
must be the mac..

and why is it everytime i wear my helmet n take it off,
theres a line in the middle of my head..
rambut belah tgh siot..
super irritating..
though dis didnt happen last time when i had long hair..
pls hair..grow faster..

btw im pretty random =))

till the next time i haf sumting even stupider to say..

welcome the night

Rambled at 12:41 AM on Thursday, November 13, 2008 | Haloscan

National service..
To serve the country..
sometimes i just wish there wasnt such a thing..
yes im proud and happy to live in singapore..
but the fact of NS alone is enough for me to sometimes wish that i wasnt born here..
yet im grateful for the frens i haf here n the people ive met n loved..
its a great experience..
but seriusly..
NS is a waste of time..
its wasting the peak of our youth..
its like at dis age is when people can make dreams happen..
at dis age is when everything happens..
and NS is just ruining everything..
Ns definately ruined my life..
we dont need NS for us to mature..
from boys to men..
HAH who the hell are they kidding..
i lost alot in my life..
and i lost even more tanx to dis..
i just cant believe im going to spend the rest of my 1yr plus left in NS doing a posting which is definately too much for me..
i just dunno how im gonna cope..
to think that it was a slack job..
haha yah rite..
Please leave NS to the people who has passion in it..
And not force people who has other aspirations n dreams..
Cant you see?
You're ruining your future impact makers..

'the possibility and the promise'
-amber pacific

dead poetic

Rambled at 12:40 AM on Tuesday, November 11, 2008 | Haloscan

One day...
Maybe...

well i've been so bz dis past few weeks..
where can i start..
well everything's been going downhill for me so far..
com's down (using bro's mac)
mp3 spoilt (thanks to the heavy rain)
well da list goes on and on and on..

well da good thing is hair's growing..haha
i really miss my old hair..
gonna be da same except abit shorter n neater..
i just hoping i can jumpstart my life again..
i guess start to pamper myself again..
which means im gonna be broke even faster haha..
and i need to get more sleep..
too many sleepless nites for me..
if dis keeps going on im gonna die from da lack of sleep..
FULLSTOP.
so till my next entry..
hope everyone is doing well..
and one word of advice..
its best to hold on den to let go..

kini usai sudah segala penantian panjangku
setelah temukan dirimu duhai kekasihku
hanya di hatimu akan kulabuhkan hidupku
kerana kau lah cinta terakhirku
-ari lasso

come take me higher..

Rambled at 2:00 AM on Monday, November 03, 2008 | Haloscan

"Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even, after all these time

And if I lived 'til I was one-hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you"

-colin hay..

not a day has passed by without me thinking of you..
every single thing reminds me of you..
the things i see..
the places i go too..

i miss u huns..n i hope u miss me too..

alot2..

"And if I had one wish fulfilled tonight
I'd ask for the sun to never rise
If God lent his voice to me to speak
I'd say go to bed, world"
-the cardigans..

when i hear dat song everytime..i think of you..n i'll miss everytime i sang it with you..