its amazing how music relates to our lives..the mere title of it can reflect something..and dats why we cant stop listening to it..we may listen to a certain song bcos of the tune..but actually when we listen closer to the lyrics it could be totally different..its like u may listen to dis song bcos its damn hardcore or sumting..but the lyrics talks abt sumting on a much softer side..like maybe the death of sumone or maybe losing sumone u love..i was browsing through my songs as usual..n i come across a song..the title was "pursuit of happiness" by stretch arm strong..n i actually am in pursuit of happiness..n lately..everywhere i go it seems the song "everybody's changing" by keane has been following me everywhere i go..in my mp3..at the fast food restaurants..in shops..in the shopping malls..maybe its trying to tell me something..maybe its pure coincidence..but everybody is changing actually in my life..

so im trying to experiment rite now..i want to try n relate the title of da song playing n da song next after it n so on..so the song playing rite now is 'thanks for the memories' by sleeping at last..n yes i can relate to dat title rite now of wat had happenned recently..so da next song is 'just once' by fell far behind..hmm think abt it..u could actually make up a whole story by all these titles..

ok maybe wat im talking maybe crap to u but maybe it could be somewhat make u reflect on something..i duno abt u but i always try and reflect the things dat has been happening in my life every nite as i sit by the computer n listen to the music i haf..so pls dun mind wat im trying to say cos i, am being honest..

now lets get back to the real life of me..

been sometime since i updated..not much pics taken in the last few days but still theres some i posted..last few days were normal but just as hectic n never ending probelms as usual..life complicated..n ur goal is to get through it..if u cant den go jump down from ur bedroom window..or better wait for the train to come and jump right before it passes u..dat would be wicked..but hey shit happens in life..sometimes u wont even understand the reason behind it but hey its life..so always say THANK U LIFE for making my day such a beautiful one when shit happens..n i haf to say dave chappelle really made my day..for those who dont noe who he is..check him out at youtube or metacafe..such a good comedian..hes muslim too..what he reminded me is money is da root of all evil..yes it is..it makes u steal, it makes u do bad things for it..n i really need money rite now..to pay my bills..hehe ok not only dat but to feed my nicotine and clothing addictions..n i think im getting ill..damn man

i really need a job..
i need a break from life..
i need to step up my game..

teachers day is coming soon..gonna go back to the ol css..n fuck all the teachers who fucked me up during my secondary skool days..haha how i wished..sorry for my language btw..yeah ive learned dat classical music is da best music to tame any soul..i learned it from sumwhere but forgot..it really like keeps da beast inside u from coming out..u just dont get violent or like get too stressed out when classical music is being played..ive learned dat if u want to haf a non violent child, let ur pregnant wife listen to classical music at least once a day..seriusly scientific experiments has shown dat dis is true..so yay to classical music..eventhough i dont listen to it..

for those having problems wif life..maybe too much stress in skool? having problems wif relationships? having such a fucked up life?..well im here to help u out..dats why i haf given u my top 10 ways to get away from it all..to just had dat half time from all of it..

1.Sleep..one of ur best frens..nvr live wifout it..all u haf to do is to lie down on dat really nice comfy bed of urs..close ur eyes..if u cant sleep maybe a good dose of some slow relaxing music can help..or watch days of our lives n ur sure to be asleep..

2.Find somewhere peaceful to chill out..like maybe find trees and somewhere where ders water..i actually find dat places which has the combination of water n nature is really peaceful..like maybe the sea..or for me ive got the canal at my place which is nearer..

3.Music.Yes music is a gd solution..but dont listen to anything dat will make u pumped up..listen to something dat will just make u sit there n listen..wifout da tapping of ur feet of headbanging..

4.Hobbies. Keep urself occupied..dont let wats stressing u out get to u..keep ur mind away from it..do sumting dat will not make u think of it..sumting dat will make u concentrate on it and it only..sports maybe? or even shopping..

5.Talk to a fren..its good to haf a fren who will always lend an ear n listen to ur thoughts n problems..eventhough they may not be helpful, it still feels good to let that load off rather than keeping it inside of u..chats does not work for dis..i recommend talking on the phone..try doing dis wif the opposite sex..even better..if uv got no one..maybe a pet will do..if not go find a tree n talk to it..but dont let others see u..they may think likewise..

6.Indulge in the finer things in life..like sex for instance..helps alot..

7.Party ur ass off! Go hang out wif ur frens..n go to clubs n just party..if u drink den go ahead drink till ur fuckin drunk..too bad i dont..if not wow there would be uncountless times i would be drunk..just go to da dance floor n shake ur booty! turn it around! Pump dat ass up!! haha jyeah! go grind some girls if ur a guy..

8.Diaries..it doesnt haf to be a diary wif entries like wat i did today..but it could be wif poems..write abt how ur feeling..almost the same as telling ur problems to ur frens but instead ur fren is ur diary..blogs like dis pathethic blog could be counted too..

9.Pain..some people out there just loooves to slit their wrists of do or some of those stupidly painful things to do to relieve stress..fuck it..might as well u just go kill urself den no more stress..but i seriusly dont recommend dis cause its crap..so dis is not counted aite..

10.Hell if all of these dont work den go smoke a joint..aka go smoke marijuana for those who dont understand..it gets u high! if not ders still a slew of other drugs up for grabs to get ur mind away from it all..maybe some ethylchloride? aka laughing gas..yeah..the easiest to get out of all..n it cost u 11.70 at all guardian stores..i think dats da price ahaks..

i just wanna say dat im missing u dearly eventhough we get to c each other everyday...

n dat wraps up my entry for today tanx for reading this really long entry..

oh yah lastly i just wanna say a big thank u to saves the day for making such a wonderful song titled this is not an exit..u guys shud listen to it...

and sail belly up to the clouds, the rocks scraping our backs.
To breathe in the air will be the only thing that we have
and all the wasted nights and empty moments in our lives
are flushed away as we sway with the rhythm of the waves bobbing us up.

So let a smile out and show your teeth cause you know you lived* it well.
*aka ur life..



mcm paham..future la k..hehe 



dua budak belo 



pizza hut delivery van 



sweaty.. 



mulut tebukak lain mcm je.. 



koloufuw shoes.. 



jealousy strikes.. 


i may look happy on da outside..but inside who noes how i feel..
had skool but was kinda bored bcos there was only me,syafiq n hannan..finish class quite late den off home, change n sk8..today was ravers nite...wondering wat dat is..check out da pics below..alot of people sk8 today at indy..met some new people..especially some crazy fellows like alep..so back home before 10..

i realise ive made a mistake..
n im going to make it right soon..
just not now cos its too fast n i dun wanna rush..
but i hope i wont be too late..
if not i seriusly need to just kill myself..



boi n taufiq..anak2 longkang..haha 



taufiq raving time.. 



alep wif a very stoinking face..haha 



gup, kai n munks.. 



ravers time.. 


relationships are like candles..
they will try and stay lit even if theres wind..
the fire wont stay in one place..
it would be swaying around struggling to keep lighted..
it will stay lit as long as theres still wax left..
and if the fire burns out..
den its gone..

firstly i just wanna say thank u soo much for such a wonderful relationship..
it was really memorable n one of da best n longest relationships ive ever had..
thank u for being so caring towards me..
thank u for all ur support for me through out da times..
spending every second wif u was nvr a waste..
thank u for spending ur whole time wif me..
thank u for all the gifts n letters..
thank u for all ur hugs n kisses..
thank u for all ur love towards me bcos it was really sumting..
no one ever loved me dat much before..
to da point where u even dropped tears for me really showd me how much u cared for me..
i hope u were happy during our time together..
i wanna say im sorry if i ever was hurtful during our relationship..
i wanna say im sorry for everything dat ive done wrong..

as much as i didnt want us to end, it still happenned..
eventhough it saddenes me, i still believe it was da best relationship ever..
yes it broke my heart but im trying to be strong..
we may not be a couple anymore but be sure dat i'll always be there for u whenever u need me..
i hope dat we may break as a couple but we wont ever as frens..

ur welcum..to me i didnt waste a single cent on u bcos u were worth it..
i hope dis was wat u wanted n i hope ur happy now..
if ever u wanna talk to me or wat just tell me k..
stay happy bcos ur smile can make other people smile..
good luck in ur future life..


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Dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
Ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
Saat kita berduka saat kita tertawa

tetapi cerita ini sudah tamat..


luv,khairi..
bi n dee (010606) - officially (210806)



if i could choose anyone to be wif in dis world..it would be u.. 


so just came back from skateboarding..woo fun! gonna skate more..and more...and more..jyeah..haizz still got homework to do later..so many drawings to do..malas!! n i wanna get a psp!! so looks like my end of years are gonna be full of activities..skate tour at sarawak..asia pacific yoyo competition most probably at malaysia..and i noe ders gonna be more..money3...k off to do drawings!



my beloved..the one who i can always trust to be there for me..she can be hurtful sometimes..real hurtful..but her life doesnt last dat long..dats when i haf to find another one.. 



boi..aka lakai..one of my good frens..known him for almost 5 yrs now.. 



taufiq aka mamat ravers..haha 



sape tak nampak buta..haha ok lar its too dark to c anyway.. 


its 2 in da morning..and im starving..so i find a cup noodle..cup noodle it is den..its been awhile since i had a proper update..had a yoyo meet just now..and damn everyone just keeps getting better..im really slacking behind...really need to back up my standards..tmr going skateboarding at indy..wif boi and the rest..dey too haf been getting better..haizz..its been a really stressful time for me so dats why didnt have the time to update..everything dats been going on wif skool, hobbies and especially my relationship..its been going from bad to worse..and i seriusly dunno wat to do..im wishing to god to give me a break..just give me some part of my life where i dun haf to be stressed of anything..i hope god does it soon..cos im really breaking down..its not dat i hate everything i haf now...im happy wif everything i haf but i just wish dat it wont have any complications..

to whom it may concern..
i really dun understand wats happening now..why is dis happening? since when i asked for a break..i was just simply asking u wether our relationship was going to stay like dis..bcos if it is den might as well we break..was there a part dat said i want a break? i didnt and i dont understand why u reacted dat way..i dont understand why u said fine if it is what i want..i dont want dis..and i dont understand why ur continuing wif it..even before all of dis, what was happening to US..why are we getting further n further apart? u tell me dat it was my fault..and u dont tell me so how do u expect me to noe what it was..how do u expect me to realise my mistakes? what happened to forever? what happened to all the promises? u telling me they were all empty promises?..i dont want us to end..ive tried every single way i can to earn u back..but u just dont seen to comply..i really2 try..n u noe dat i still luv u..really..but even after all dis..if u still wont believe in everything dat i say..and if u still want to continue wat ur doing den i wont stop u bcos at least i noe dat ive tried..why are u giving me back all the things dat i give to u..all of them are gifts and im not suppose to get it back...the ring the bracelet..i dont want it back..fine if u dont want to keep it den go and throw it away or give to sumone else..but i actually hoped u would keep it just as memories..so whats the status of our relationship now? bcos i dont really noe..is it on or off? bcos i still luv u..

btw mang mew is not a jrock or krock band ok..its english..listen closely..

it's getting colder
each and everyday
the nights get longer
i slowly fade

give me a reason to
wake up and face the lie
i've been searching for
a way out of this life
how will i make it through
this long and bitter night?
with no hope dat i'll find a sign

below are some random pics from the past few days..but one is not..



rawr! 



where we were.. 



EX-plorers 



before i became sick.. 



sponsored by nike.. 



walking towards nowhere.. 



me n budak levis 501.. 



run for ur lives!! 

panic at artoosh!

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