Night safari
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9:54 PM on Wednesday, October 29, 2008 |
Haloscanif i only knew back then u were there..
And tanx amin for dat day..
Raya 08
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9:41 PM on |
HaloscanDidn't get lots of shots for the day..
haha..one of the funniest photos ever..and yes alep n esan were really fighting..and mel muke kau macam apek mabuk ko tau tak..
random pictures from long ago..
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9:28 PM on |
Haloscan
I Won't See You Tonight
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3:47 AM on |
HaloscanIm suprised dat some people still read dis blog..haha well dont expect too much k..i nvr promise i would always update it..this blog is just a place where i would go when i really gotta let out my feelings..
Every single night i stare out the window wif a cigarette in my fingers..
In a state of depression is what im in..
Every single night my heart aches every single second..
Puffing n puffing hoping it would kill me sooner..
Every single night i think of you..
Hoping you would come back..
Every single night i ask myself again n again why did it haf to come to this..
Why did it haf to come to an end..
We promised we'll love each other no matter how hard it got..
We promised we would never hurt each other..
Yes i know i haf made mistakes and hurt u wif things dat i said..
But i realised my mistakes and i asked for forgiveness..
I have never stopped loving u a second..
And even till now i still do baby..
I did my best baby to be there wif u..
To shower u wif love..
I cared for u baby..
I cared n worried for u even while i was in camp..
Just waiting till da day i was free and being able to be there for u like i always had..
And when da day really came..
You werent there anymore..
I noe the time apart made us further and further..
But i didnt have a choice..
We always had to be there together,,
Or maybe i did..
You noe dat i couldn't be apart from you even for a second..
Seconds later i would haf msgd saying how much i missed you..
One day u just dropped a bomb on me like dat..
How was i supposed to feel baby?
I understand dat u needed time to know what u wanted in ur life..
But why did it haf to come to you couldnt find any feelings for me anymore?
I dont understand sayang..
I tried baby..
And i lost again..
I tried..
And i lost again..
I REALLY tried hoping you wud find your love for me again..
And i hope u tried too..
And right after your birthday..
On the 19 of Oct 2008..
You wanted to call it quits..
You broke my heart baby..
You really did..
You just took it and just threw it off the highest building you could ever find..
It hurts to noe u wud really do dat to me..
What happenned to always n forever?
What happenned to forever n ever babe?
What hurts more is dat i would still die for you..
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain..
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means..
I can't help it baby, this is who I am..
I'm sorry but I can't just go turn off how I feel..
You kill me, you build me up..
But just to watch me break..
I know what I should do..
But I just can't walk away..
When you go, I'll let you be..
But you're killing everything in me..
You always say there will be others..
Others who would be better..
Who would love me more..
But you're wrong baby..
No one else will have me like you do..
No one else will have me, only you..
Until now, i still love u sayang..
I still care for you..
And i noe u still do too..
When i saw you dat day..
My heart jumped and stopped for a moment..
It kept skipping a beat..
Just like how i saw u the first time..
All i wanted to do was hug u tightly..
And just whisper in your ears how much i love you..
I miss you baby..
Every single second of everyday..
I feel that when I'm old..
I'll look at you and know..
The world was beautiful..
And i hope that when i'm old..
You would still be there right by my side..
I've got nothing to lose now..
Cos i lost the one thing i had in my life..
And dats you sayang..
I just can't go on without you..
You're my everything..
Always be..
"No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight"
- matt shadows, A7X
