the disconnecting count of days of fading away

derb

Rambled at 11:56 PM on Sunday, November 26, 2006 | Haloscan

I HATE NOVEMBER!! FUCK IT!!! TOO MANY SHITTY THINGS HAPPENNED TO ME..FUCK AR!

haizz..yes i do..i really hate november..and recently i just found out my dad took my ciggarettes! FUCK LAH! i just bought it sak!! really fucking pissed..i just smoked 2 sticks sak!! MANA LEH ACCEPT CAM GINI!!..and i noe for a fact he doesnt throw my ciggarettes away, instead he gives them to his frens at work..sial tul..n now hes sleeping rite in front of the bedroom door so i cant steal them back..sial tul..but i fuckin dont care!! im going to haf ciggarettes on my way to school!! The one thing i need rite now is ciggarettes!! AARRGGHH!!!..

So yesterday i was supposed to go to my cousins wedding..i did plan to go after sentosa..but den da malas..and even at the end of the day i felt guilty for not going..my parents didnt say anything k so stop wif the questions..i seriusly dont haf the mood to blog abt wat happenned dis n dat day..but instead i just want to take out my freaking anger rite now!!! AARRGGHHH!!! but seriusly i felt guilty for not going..i actually dreamt dat my parents wanted to see wether i would choose family or frens..dat means sentosa or wedding..bcos it was my very close cousins wedding..and to me i would choose family over frens anytime..family is more important..but seriusly sak shit happens to me to many times..

I still dont understand wat god plans for me to do during the time i have here..people say u do good deeds and good things will happen to you..i do good deeds and alot of shit happen to me..WTF RITE?!?! might as i well i dont fucking help anyone..bcos all i get is shit!..

During dis time of november..i notice dat the relationship n bond i haf wif my parents are going down the drain..really DOWN the drain..i nvr talked to them for one day..and the thing which i hate the most is dat they wont even LOOK at me..for god's sake!! seriusly im in no mood for anything rite now...maybe after november i'll try to get better but for now, im just going to do my own stuff or wat not..bcos i seriusly dont noe wat will happen to my life in the future if it stays like dis..haizz..

so i actually wrote sumthing when i was locked outside the house..im not in the mood during the time i wrote dis but wth..

Love knows no boundaries..
Just like the love u n i share..
everyone is different and unique..
the one who u really love comes when least expected..
they will come in a time when ur not looking for love..
they will be your true love..
the one you'll cherish forever..
the one who will always be there by your side..
you can't really know wether the one you love right now is your true love..
but u will know it when your going to take your last breath to leave this world..
and you better be sure dat u had the greatest, most wonderful , unforgettable time wif them as it will be the last time you'll ever see them in this world again..
so remember, be patient..
your true love will come..
one day..
and for a fact..
you come to love by not finding a perfect person..
but by loving an imperfect person perfectly..

sweat sweat sweat..

Rambled at 11:45 PM on Wednesday, November 08, 2006 | Haloscan

k yes its obvious i know its been a long time since i updated..its a combination of laziness+bzness+no timeness..haha..but its true..its been a hectic few months for me and im not sure abt the future..could be more could be better..but im just so stressed nowadays..ive been thinking and working too much..and i need to listen to jiwang or some slow smooth indie songs to really relax me..and i actually cant listen to emocore songs or anything wif alot of screams nowadays..entah ar..mcm buat pening kepala ar..so yesterday for me it was back to the good old emo songs..haha..nak kene start relaxing ar..if not my hair will fall off even more...and it has been happening nowadays!!! gross things happenned to which i wont say anything abt it..haha..i think i need to sleep more..so goodbye people..

ive updated pics of raya..

Rambled at 11:42 PM on | Haloscan