cutoutmyheart...

you're the truth not i

2009-06-24T21:55:00.002+08:00

the clock is ticking..
im getting closer n closer to the reality of life..
its less than a year away for me till i finish my national service..
for one it has taught me how to deal with hard bosses..
n dat is just to say yes..
agree wif everything ur boss says..
accept whatever crap ur boss gives u..
talk to ur boss wif a smile ..
n im sure ur boss wont be such a pain..
ur boss is just like a mosquito sucking ur blood..
u wont feel a thing..
though it can be annoying..
who cares..

i wonder what my future has in store for me..
will i get into the school i want?
will i get my diploma?
maybe i wud go for further studies..
would i get a good job..
or would i live my life on part time jobs n not earn enough to make a living..
will i find my life partner?
will i get married?
will i haf kids?
would my kids grow up to be like me?
or more successfull?
will i live in a nice home, drive a nice car?
would i haf all the money in the world..
but the final question..
when will i die?

all these questions will nvr be answered nw..
life is like a trip..
when u go from point a to point b..
but getting there wont be easy..
its gonna be filled with obstacles..
its a trail filled wif forks...
have u made ur decision?
will u go the right way?
destiny is in ur hands..
u choose where u wanna go...
be wise..
cos u can nvr go back down the road once uv chosen..
its just dat way..
but all u hope is dat u'll get to your destination safe n sound..
or better still hope dat u will even reach to ur destination..
anything can happen..

ask urself..
will u make the right decision?
or will other things influence u to go the other way..
be honest n follow ur heart...
follow ur common sense..
dats the only way to get to ur destination the best way u ever cud..

follow the light..your only way out..

smile for the camera

2009-02-25T01:03:00.009+08:00

its been a long time since i thought about getting back to school after NS..
n that thought struck me just recently..
i really have to make a good impression if i ever want to get into NAFA..
n to do dat means a good portfolio..
i really haf to start on mine..
first step get photoshop on com..
second get camera for photos...

anyways i'll just post photos of recent outings =) cheers..

stress

cibai face 3

cibai face 2 haha

cibai face

blast from the past

2009-02-20T13:25:00.002+08:00

as i do my daily routine,
one of them is to open youtube n watch videos..
im an addict to the website..
but today was special..
at my recommended section (cos im a member)
there was this video..
it was The O.C best music moments..
as i click it..
there it was..
one of the most heart wrenching scenes ive ever had to endure..
the scene n the background music was so in tune together..
it was when anna had to leave..n seth came running after (for those who watch n noe)
n the song that was playing was nada surf - if you leave..
that song meant a lot for me..
i feel like i can relate to it one way or another..

i miss the O.C..
stayed on till its last ever episode..
n im dissapointed it had to go cos of bad ratings..

"eversince u came back in view,
i feel alive..
eversince u smiled at me,
ive never felt happier..
it feels like its time for me
to make a change..
in different ways..
but with u by my side"

concord dawn

2009-02-11T13:26:00.001+08:00

the feelings overwhelming me
trying hard to block it
but i wont want it unless u want dat too..
for what's best..
is all i think about..

voodoo people!!

2009-02-04T17:41:00.007+08:00

one word..AMAZING
to describe the prodigy concert..

it was just too crazy there..everyone was wild..i was wild..it was hot,sticky,wet,the smell sweaty bodies..but just the energy by them was enough for me to forget it all..if they ever were to come again..yes i will go again..still having a hangover..not from drinking (cos i dont) but from the atmosphere hehe soo happy =))

.the world is not enough.

2009-01-31T20:41:00.003+08:00

3 more days!!
AARRRGGGHHH!! cannot wait!!

to this of cos =)))

and yes i have finally turned the last page to the twilight saga..
kinda sad dat there's no more books i can look forward to..
its like the drug just stopped there..
no more..
going cold turkey..

pok pok ke!!

haha

okay its another saturday n im bored as hell now..garh!

psychobabble

2009-01-28T03:40:00.009+08:00

wei dgr2 tak keje eh bsok?!?!
da kul brape maseh tanak tdo..
flying kick aru tau...
bangun kul 7+ camne tu?!?!
nanti mata panda..
*talking to self*

i am blissfully happy =))
i sleep wif a smile..
n wake up wif all my clothes gone..
haha no lar!
wif a smile too.. =)

just some pictures of recent outings

my baby bella's new look (which i hopefully will get money to change da colour again hehe)

muke boboi haha

muke gegerl haha *no harm intended =))*

steamois demois (the one who thought im yours was sang by bob marley HAHAHAHA)

budak2 giler

muke mintak kene snapang gajah

i look chubby GRR! =< (being strangled wif a smile =))

yet if only i had my camera, my pics would be better..OH WELLS!
till den *hurries off to watch football*

its true

2009-01-22T00:33:00.002+08:00

shait! i go n cut my sideburns by myself..
now it looks..
haha i dun even wanna say
pls grow back sideburns!
i need u! =)

i am utterly nonsense n haf nothing to say..
dun haf anything to say actually..
when da day comes..

la vie en rose

2009-01-16T00:09:00.003+08:00

nvr have i smiled as much as today..

there is going to be a big probability im going to see them

if u dunno who dat is well its the prodigy..i do listen to dem but there was this feeling..a gut feeling telling me to go..n im soo hyped out eversince..badside was it was gonna cost me $95..pout..n i have started to just always go wif my gut feelings..cleverly of cos..(feeling mcm yes man gitu haha)well dats no 1 which made me smile..cos i was going to a concert..

2nd thing was dat i got to watch a movie i always wanted to do such a looooong time ago..n dat was jeux d'enfants..aka love me if you dare..its a french movie..n a very good one..i've been always a sucker for romantic movies..as in i like to watch romantic movies..(sensitive side) haha...the ending was sad yet it was soooo nice n romantic..i cant stop smiling till now..

3rd..boss is not gonna be at work tmr..so its like a sense of freedom at work so y wudnt i be happy abt dat..

4th was dat im finally talking to u bella...n it felt really nice..

wanted to upload pics from my recent outing to rifle range wif my old frens..but still havent got them yet so i will when i get them..

ps.my cheeks hurt from smiling too much..

it feels like an eternity..

2009-01-14T00:26:00.002+08:00

never have i been soo obsessed wif anything
yet i needed it badly..i need the 3rd book..
never has a book felt so right for me to read..
it just connected me..
cos i felt just da same way as the characters..

i too felt i am the same person yet i feel so empty inside..
the feeling that
........................ (silence fell on me as i felt the pain of it again)

you would always be my bella..
but i hoped i could be your edward..

in coma..

2009-01-07T00:48:00.006+08:00

it was one of those days..
walking zombie like into the office..
with mega big eye bags..
all thanks to my new love..
and its actually a book..

it was a sunday..
i was bored as usual..
everybody's busy with work..
so wat better way than to go to town..
alone =)
so i walked around n picked out a shirt dat i liked..
to only noe it cost 130 bucks..
a TSHIRT..
haha okay maybe last time i did buy those kind of price tagged tshirts but i really need to stop..
but maybe i will get it one day..
so instead i bought another tee at 70 bucks..
after dat i didnt noe where else to go cos it was alrdy late to go to heeren n cathay so i decided to go to borders..
first thing i looked for was a book or movie called love me if you dare..
but the people told me they didnt bring in the book..
so i just went ahead n browsed around..
to see the book..
no not the book i wanted but another book..
yes twilight..
haha..

i really wanted to noe all the who ha about the movie being no.1 so i decided to get the book..
n it was 18 bucks so why not..
its been awhile since i read anyways..
and gosh i was hooked just like how i got hooked to harry potter the moment i finished with the first chapter..
i read on until i didnt sleep..
haha n i had work in the morning..
n im devastated that i finished it in 2 days..
haha n i really need to get the other parts..
cos its killing me to noe what happens next..
yes go get the book..
its really nice..
just my type..fantasy n romance..

n it was heartbreaking to find out my old hard drive was unrecoverable..
all the pictures!!! arrrggghhh!!
all the memories..
n i asked the computer shop if i really2 wanted to recover..
he told me the only way was to go to a specialist..
a specialist who has license from the government..
a person who kind of get the data out for investigations..
n it could cost me between 500 to 2000..
my jaw dropped at the moment..
sigh..
so people out there..if u got tings which are dear to u in the computer..
please make a back up..
invest in an external hard drive..
cos u wont noe when your hard drive could just crash..

just some pictures a few days ago..

the first person i spent with in 2009..haha we were on the bike to meet the rest when it turned midnight and also the one who jiwa n accident with me in december..n we both are december babies..haha

i still have a crush on ur sister =)

a panoramic view of the guys on new year..there were others but they went too look for girls in the area..

All i see

2009-01-02T02:37:00.004+08:00

what a new year it has turned out to be...
i was being sarcastic..
for the whole day today i have just been sitting at home n rotting..
n now im just staring blankly into the screen..
even better, the song im listening to rite now keeps repeating 'dont u ever get lonely?'..
i feel lonely every single day..
eversince 19 oct..
im really jealous looking at u..
jealous dat at least u haf sumone else taking care of u now..
i want dat..
all i ever want was sumone to care n love me..
my heart is broken up into 4 sections..
my frens, my family, the special one(aka gf) n of cos myself..
ive got it all..
im happy wif the rest..
but there is just still one section which is ever so empty..
the special one of cos..
it sucks to see u so happy..
dont get me wrong but i do want u to be happy..
but i also do too..

ive always wanted to stop smoking..
i had a reason to stop..
i actually promised to at the end of 2008..
but i promised it to sumone..
but here i am typing wif a cigarette in my mouth..
why should i keep my promises if u cant keep urs..
n to make things better, i have a freakin hole in my lung bcos of the cigarrettes..
now i now why i sumtimes feel a sharp pain in my chest..

as i sit here wif my eyes closed..
the thoughts of wat the future might bring me..
i mean yes im excited for the new year..
and i really am hoping its gonna be better..
but theres just this feeling..
feeling scared..
but they say its good to be scared that means u still have something to lose..
al least it shows u havent lost everything..

but im also feeling dissapointed..
dissapointed with myself that i still cant get over you..
still here i am typing about u..
still here i am thinking about u..

"So I've been sleeping with this silence in my mind
And all I see scares me
And no one knows it, but she, she saved me

So I've been sleeping with this silence in my brain
I wake up here everyday in this god damn place
I won't wait here anymore

It's still not quite the way it was
But you promised me this is love
So stay and watch the hospital
That's just across the street
From your apartment balcony
I'll never ever leave there
I'll never leave

Oh, no one is watching now
Sing like you just might drown
But always come back home
'Cause I never got to see you once more, no
I guess that's all I wanted
Yeah, I guess that's all I needed

Now look, we've made a fool out of love
When all we want is to be enough
When all we want is to feel enough"

-lydia.

cardiff by the sea..

2008-12-31T14:54:00.003+08:00

well its the last day of 2008..

its been a good yet bad year for me..i now know that she will always be the type of girl dat i would ever want..after numerous relationships..it just felt so right..eventhough the relationship has ended..yes i was devastated..im not good wif break ups as all my frens noe...but its gonna be a new year..n i hope u'll succeed in ur future relationships n in everything u do..just dont be a stranger k..

ive learned that its not clever to follow your heart when riding ur bike..cos ive learned it the hard way..knowing it was raining, the road was wet..yet i still was quite fast into going a filter lane corner..n yup kelepap jatuh..n its an expensive lesson too..but i thank god my life wasnt taken away..use ur brain more often k khairi..

one of my main problems this year was money..i was badly in debt..soo many things to pay..n the government pays me only 470 per month..but ive learned to deal wif it n yes im happy i dun haf anymore debts..except for my bike repairs dat is..argh

im not really good wif new year resolutions..but there are things i hope will improve into the new year..

i dunno wether im still ready for a new relationship yet..i tried..but my heart n mind just wasnt in the right place..i definately need to be safer on the roads..yes i still like the feeling of going into corners n speeding through the expressways..but i haf to do it after thinking it through first..haha..i certainly will have to find ways of saving money..i know i spend alot of money on entertainment..its not like its a bad thing..but well just dont spend it all away i guess..but this coming year..i really just want to put my life back on track..i need to pamper myself more..shop more..

n since its a new year, i just want to apologise to anyone who has a grudge on me for something i did wrong kepe..im sorry..hell i noe im not a saint..but hehe well we do make mistakes..whatever it is i truly didnt meant it..

can you cure this loneliness in my heart, euphoria..

im going to end this years entry wif a pic of me n my mom..very recent pic..just bcos i love her n she will always be in my heart forever..i love u mom =)

she looks annoyed haha..

cheers to a new year everyone..

those were the times..

2008-12-23T03:27:00.009+08:00

gawd i just miss the old days..the ite days dat is..

the usuals who go to skool

obviously one of the shortest..haha

despite all the drama, i still had lots of fun wif everyone..one of the most enjoyable moments in my life..i just miss everyone..

the world you love

2008-12-22T13:54:00.010+08:00

well for the past few days been lazying off at home..haha MC mah!
now i dunno where to get the 1K+ for my bike repairs..rabak dok motor..and when i finally settled all my debt another problem comes along..but i haf to learn to accept everything..everything happens for a reason i guess..

but after all this, i still wanna join a track day at the tuas circuit hehe..maybe even join a race..the legal way at least =)its all about da passion which keeps me choosing the motorbike..yes i do wanna have a car..but not nw..still too young hehe..

recently watched Yes man wif the guys..haha been awhile since i went to the movies n to start off wif dis was really nice..i enjoyed it..n buto bom ko takmo beli tu helmet eh..

time to start saving money ey..

corner basah!!

27

where i wanna be

kecoh kecoh!

alif

falah stress, me n lemang ponyo haha

watching races makes you happy

the aftermath..(the white-ish wound had to be covered cos too serious haha)

in pain

2008-12-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

well if u guys didnt noe..i just got into an accident on 14 DEC..which was yesterday frm when im updating rite nw..its really sad cos 14 dec is my bday..im pretty much okay..except for the wounds of cos..but im scared cos it feels as though i tore my ligament..n i really dun want dat to happen..lemang has pics of my battle scars n its pretty disgusting..haha..sigh..my bike is a total wreck..rabak gila sak..dis yr is just nt working out for me..but i will get through it..but just no more pls..ive been through enough..

i'll always remember 14 DEC 2008 the day i had my first n really bad accident..

taking your chances to feel again

2008-12-08T03:12:00.003+08:00

Apalah dengan nasib aku..
apa yang ku buat untuk mendapat ni semua..
ku cuba tukar tetapi ini yang ku dpt?
ku lebih menolong tetapi mendapat lebih masalah..

this year has been a really bad year for me..
straight to the top of the list..

aimless endeavour

2008-12-03T00:39:00.006+08:00

Its weird how the voice of richard ashcroft is making me feel so nice tonight :\

Im really tired of people putting me down..especially when ur getting it from ur own parents..
its hard especially when they have never supported me in any of my interest..
everything is a negative to them..garh..

hey there was a dead body beside me a few days ago..haha..n i wish i hadnt seen it..but den nk buat cmne kan suddenly a car brake in front of me..first i saw the damaged car..n it was REALLY badly damaged..then the body in the next lane...kiwakk..the head all bloody..da lah oozing everywhere...bluek...

ive moved on but i would be lying if i say i didnt miss you..cos i do..
n if this is the way u want it to be then thats up to you..
remember the things u said at mount faber?

recently i went to c dis beauty..

yup ur nice an all..but i still love mine =)

ive really got nothin much to say tonight so i'll leave wif some pictures...

the view..

when did your heart go missing

2008-11-18T01:58:00.003+08:00

catering to an illusion seems great..

i need sleep..
haha yes i really do..
ive been occupying myself so much till i dun even haf time to sleep..
everythings been great so far..
the nite outs..
the karaoke nites..or nite haha..
the frens..
but there is one thing..
the money..
haha i just cant seem to help myself when it comes to money..
i earn so little yet i spend as if i earn 10k per month - sarcasticly though..
its been a problem of mine eversince i learned to spend money..

been playing lots of football lately..
till one point i played untill it felt i was gonna faint any moment..
haha but it felt as though i lost 10kg..
but mcm sama je..haha
i just think im one of those people who can lose weight but still look da same..
but i dun wanna =(
it wud be nice if i can change abit..
its not that im nt happy wif myself but it wud be NICER..
so now i need a financial planner and fitness trainer..
anyone up for the job?
i'll pay =) hehe

oh n i just dun get wif my com and its internet connection..
its just so bad argh!
and the wireless modem is just in the next room..
must be the mac..

and why is it everytime i wear my helmet n take it off,
theres a line in the middle of my head..
rambut belah tgh siot..
super irritating..
though dis didnt happen last time when i had long hair..
pls hair..grow faster..

btw im pretty random =))

till the next time i haf sumting even stupider to say..

welcome the night

2008-11-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

National service..
To serve the country..
sometimes i just wish there wasnt such a thing..
yes im proud and happy to live in singapore..
but the fact of NS alone is enough for me to sometimes wish that i wasnt born here..
yet im grateful for the frens i haf here n the people ive met n loved..
its a great experience..
but seriusly..
NS is a waste of time..
its wasting the peak of our youth..
its like at dis age is when people can make dreams happen..
at dis age is when everything happens..
and NS is just ruining everything..
Ns definately ruined my life..
we dont need NS for us to mature..
from boys to men..
HAH who the hell are they kidding..
i lost alot in my life..
and i lost even more tanx to dis..
i just cant believe im going to spend the rest of my 1yr plus left in NS doing a posting which is definately too much for me..
i just dunno how im gonna cope..
to think that it was a slack job..
haha yah rite..
Please leave NS to the people who has passion in it..
And not force people who has other aspirations n dreams..
Cant you see?
You're ruining your future impact makers..

'the possibility and the promise'
-amber pacific

dead poetic

2008-11-11T00:40:00.002+08:00

One day...
Maybe...

well i've been so bz dis past few weeks..
where can i start..
well everything's been going downhill for me so far..
com's down (using bro's mac)
mp3 spoilt (thanks to the heavy rain)
well da list goes on and on and on..

well da good thing is hair's growing..haha
i really miss my old hair..
gonna be da same except abit shorter n neater..
i just hoping i can jumpstart my life again..
i guess start to pamper myself again..
which means im gonna be broke even faster haha..
and i need to get more sleep..
too many sleepless nites for me..
if dis keeps going on im gonna die from da lack of sleep..
FULLSTOP.
so till my next entry..
hope everyone is doing well..
and one word of advice..
its best to hold on den to let go..

kini usai sudah segala penantian panjangku
setelah temukan dirimu duhai kekasihku
hanya di hatimu akan kulabuhkan hidupku
kerana kau lah cinta terakhirku
-ari lasso

come take me higher..

2008-11-03T02:00:00.002+08:00

"Your face it dances and it haunts me
Your laughter's still ringing in my ears
I still find pieces of your presence here
Even, after all these time

And if I lived 'til I was one-hundred and two
I just don't think I'll ever get over you"

-colin hay..

not a day has passed by without me thinking of you..
every single thing reminds me of you..
the things i see..
the places i go too..

i miss u huns..n i hope u miss me too..

alot2..

"And if I had one wish fulfilled tonight
I'd ask for the sun to never rise
If God lent his voice to me to speak
I'd say go to bed, world"
-the cardigans..

when i hear dat song everytime..i think of you..n i'll miss everytime i sang it with you..

Night safari

2008-10-29T21:54:00.006+08:00

if i only knew back then u were there..

And tanx amin for dat day..

Raya 08

2008-10-29T21:41:00.007+08:00

Didn't get lots of shots for the day..

haha..one of the funniest photos ever..and yes alep n esan were really fighting..and mel muke kau macam apek mabuk ko tau tak..

random pictures from long ago..

2008-10-29T21:28:00.007+08:00

I Won't See You Tonight

2008-10-29T03:47:00.005+08:00

Im suprised dat some people still read dis blog..haha well dont expect too much k..i nvr promise i would always update it..this blog is just a place where i would go when i really gotta let out my feelings..

Every single night i stare out the window wif a cigarette in my fingers..
In a state of depression is what im in..
Every single night my heart aches every single second..
Puffing n puffing hoping it would kill me sooner..
Every single night i think of you..
Hoping you would come back..
Every single night i ask myself again n again why did it haf to come to this..
Why did it haf to come to an end..

We promised we'll love each other no matter how hard it got..
We promised we would never hurt each other..
Yes i know i haf made mistakes and hurt u wif things dat i said..
But i realised my mistakes and i asked for forgiveness..
I have never stopped loving u a second..
And even till now i still do baby..

I did my best baby to be there wif u..
To shower u wif love..
I cared for u baby..
I cared n worried for u even while i was in camp..
Just waiting till da day i was free and being able to be there for u like i always had..
And when da day really came..
You werent there anymore..

I noe the time apart made us further and further..
But i didnt have a choice..
We always had to be there together,,
Or maybe i did..
You noe dat i couldn't be apart from you even for a second..
Seconds later i would haf msgd saying how much i missed you..

One day u just dropped a bomb on me like dat..
How was i supposed to feel baby?
I understand dat u needed time to know what u wanted in ur life..
But why did it haf to come to you couldnt find any feelings for me anymore?
I dont understand sayang..

I tried baby..
And i lost again..
I tried..
And i lost again..
I REALLY tried hoping you wud find your love for me again..
And i hope u tried too..

And right after your birthday..
On the 19 of Oct 2008..
You wanted to call it quits..
You broke my heart baby..
You really did..
You just took it and just threw it off the highest building you could ever find..
It hurts to noe u wud really do dat to me..
What happenned to always n forever?
What happenned to forever n ever babe?
What hurts more is dat i would still die for you..

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain..
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means..
I can't help it baby, this is who I am..
I'm sorry but I can't just go turn off how I feel..
You kill me, you build me up..
But just to watch me break..
I know what I should do..
But I just can't walk away..
When you go, I'll let you be..
But you're killing everything in me..

You always say there will be others..
Others who would be better..
Who would love me more..
But you're wrong baby..
No one else will have me like you do..
No one else will have me, only you..

Until now, i still love u sayang..
I still care for you..
And i noe u still do too..
When i saw you dat day..
My heart jumped and stopped for a moment..
It kept skipping a beat..
Just like how i saw u the first time..
All i wanted to do was hug u tightly..
And just whisper in your ears how much i love you..
I miss you baby..
Every single second of everyday..
I feel that when I'm old..
I'll look at you and know..
The world was beautiful..
And i hope that when i'm old..
You would still be there right by my side..

I've got nothing to lose now..
Cos i lost the one thing i had in my life..
And dats you sayang..
I just can't go on without you..
You're my everything..
Always be..

"No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight"
- matt shadows, A7X

the world has turned and left me here..

2007-10-18T03:59:00.000+08:00

nobody said it was easy..
-coldplay

watching the stars from my bedroom window,

i couldnt sleep..

im starting to feel the weight of owning a bike..

financially dat is..

i actually really thought it was going to be easy..

but it really proved me wrong..

i really hope i can cope wif it..

there's so much that i have to pay..

it wouldn't be a problem if my pay was 2.5k per month..

but really its not..its not even a stable one..

sigh..

i've got school and i've got to work..

n its really draining up my energy..

i really dunno what to do now..

im just so stressed..

i have to think of what i have to pay and how much its gonna cost me..

on top of dat dis is going to be my last semester in school..

i have soo many projects to be done..

n i have to really do well to get a good grade so that i'll be safe when i continue school after

national service..

why does the world revolve around money..

if only money grew on trees..

dont panic..

-coldplay

You're the only one who helps me get through

each and everyday..

Forever and Ever Babe..Happy 18th Birthday..

Just wanna be with you

2007-08-04T04:08:00.000+08:00

Trust: confident expectation of something; hope.
Hope: to believe, desire, or trust.

See how these two words work together?

Summer quickly faded
And all the stars
Had turned to stone
Out in the woods we waited
Cause anywhere with you
I knew I was home

You were all I wanted to see there
And that's the way it was
When we belong together
And we thought we were crazy
But we were so strong together
And this world you gave me
I thought we'd go on forever
Isn't that strange?

All these things
I thought would never change
Put you right by my side
Cut through the fields
Up to the park
Meet at the car on the south side
To sleep by the fountain When it got dark

And that thought came back through my mind..
i thought it was over..
but it came back..
the thing i didnt want most to happen came back..
and im hoping..
hoping..
i asked god again..
what did i do wrong this time?
why must it happen to me again?..
help me..
dont let the devil play mind tricks with me..
i know that i can trust..
but its making me have second thoughts..
i dont want that..
keep my mind free from all this..
oh god dont do this to me again..
praying..
praying everyday..
never will it happen to me again..

enrique iglesias songs can be quite addictive rite now if ur in a state like mine..

the best thing that happenned to my life..is having u..

Its a G' thang

2007-07-16T02:15:00.000+08:00

So anyone recently watched harry potter? Tanx to my darls i got to watch the movie..really luv u for dat..well it was a nice movie of cos but i was a bit disappointed..bcos i read the book so i actually wanted the movie to follow it..but yeah they changed some of the parts and missed alot of things..i noe i noe..if they were to follow the book, it would be like a 4 hour long movie..but still they shudnt haf changed some of the parts..hehe oh well..

1 week before the big day..hehe countdown ah..

anyways i really miss shopping..the thing which wud get me in a really cheery mood..haha..but yeah..i love the feeling of getting sumting new to wear..but yeah due to financial crisis i am in now..its hard for me to spend..not having money to go out wif ur girlfren is harder..haiyo..but she's been so helpful lah..i feel like the luckiest guy to have her..now i feel like a bad boyfren..but i should stop wasting my life..i shud go find a job..haizz..but im so choosy lah when it comes to jobs..so i really hope i wud do well next monday so i can finally try to get a rider job..and soon after that i will haf to find a full time job and start my life alrdy..it sucks that u have to have a good education to find a good job..depending on my parents sooo much lah..

haha nice pic min..especially the pipit and bom part..

i look so much like my sister lah in this picture..

yes i want a new cap..haizz..

and a new shoe too..haizz..

Is it any wonder?

2007-07-11T02:35:00.000+08:00

Well school has started..arrrggghh

dont get me wrong..i actually do like going to school..the only thing i dont look forward to is the journey and the school rules..for journey well isnt it obvious..i live in in jurong and my school is in ang mo kio..sigh..which means i haf to wake up early too...sighs more...for school rules..nuthin much..only the fact dat guys cant keep long hair..so everytime i see the discipline teacher i haf to quickly run and hide somewhere first..haha..

so live earth was sumting huh..awareness for global warming..i certainly did alot of things which didnt do good for the earth..haha..but maybe im gonna TRY and change dat..i dun wanna haf my children born and not know antartica..its kinda sad actually seeing it melting away bcos of us..i pity the animals there..

my traffic police test is getting closer!! stress2...2 more week siot!!

today couldnt wake up for school..so slept till 4..then just slack around the house as per normal..football den..while going back home from football my bicycle back tyre inflated lah..cibai!!! half way siot..den must push all the way back home..dunno why..must be sumting pierced through it..

i shouldnt blog any longer..got school tmr and i MUST sleep..

so i shall upload pics from the past few days..

still missing u syg..

wear green day!

peace

no parking biyach!!

birthday girl..

muke ada senyum pa!!

STEAM PA!!

SAMPAI BARING PA!!!

sedut2! kasik matik!

haha annoyed face

Weezy baby..

2007-07-06T05:11:00.000+08:00

haha i've grown so attached to these shades..didnt like them at first..but it started to grow on me..tanx dad..haha stupid photo..

anyways as some of u may or may not know the simpsons movie is coming soon..cant wait for that movie..and rite noe..u can go to the movie's website and make ur own simpson..damn cool lah..haha but one movie im really looking forward is of cos harry potter..

as some of u know im a big harry potter fan..haha sounds geekish..but i started reading the book during my lower secondary school days..got addicted ever since..until now lah...seriusly its like a fantasy for me..if only i was a wizard..was bored during the holidays so started reading some of the books again..

but the holidays are coming to an end..it sucks all of sudden..but to hear that lil wayne has a degree in psychology.. is just really inspiring..he's looks like a damn gangsta wif all his tattoos and stuff but finding out he has a good education..i want that too..

i really need to clean my room..soo damn messy..anyone wif free time willing to help out? haha..damn nightmare to clean my room bcos got too much stuff..i've got some assignments to finish and im lazy to do dat too...instead i sit at home..waking up really late..just wasting time..and i've got soo much to do but just cant do it..

my traffic police test is coming nearer n nearer..really hope i can pass the first time..can start working alrdy..i really need to work lah..im always broke all the time...and having chats wif manga abt saving and investing money..we shud start young..so at least when we're older adults can have an easier life..and i want dat..who doesnt..

so today went to jurong point..window shopping makes me realise again that there are alot of things i want to buy..which really cost alot..haizz..dreams..its bad enough u need money to enjoy..haha its true wat..maybe in certain cases u dont..but usually u do..this is wat the world revolves around..money..dat is why u spend half ur life working..to get that colored paper.. haizz..wish it wasnt dat way..

talking too much again at 5.30 in the morning..i realise i have a thing for actresses whose name start wif j..haha so damn hot lah..jessica biel, jessica alba, jennifer garner..and robin williams always cracks me up..

if only blogging earns u money..i'll sure as hell be blogging everyday..

im still bored..

i miss my boo..

i cant sleep..

and im listening to rihanna..how bad is dat...

Pinbacked...

2007-07-03T02:41:00.000+08:00

I put a song in my blog not to just show what im currently listening to..its more like..what im feeling..i choose a song not bcos of that..but rather i choose a song which lyrics or mood of the tune show how im feeling rite now..i now its kinda deep..

i've been feeling restless these past few weeks..i sleep at 6 or 7 in the morning then waking up obviously late..i wonder why..maybe its bcos im constantly out with my frens during the late hours of the day..but maybe its not bcos of that..its not as if i constantly go out with them everyday..or maybe i do..but thats not the point..i feel im doing this so i can get alot of alone time..bcos in the wee hours of morning..no one else awake except for me..in my own room..i feel i can do anything i want..and its like i dun haf to talk to anybody etc2...but im there just minding my own business..no one to nag at me..and definately alone time to think..yes i agree wif wat my girlfren told me..ive been thinking too much..well to tell u the truth ive always been like dis..i dunno..but i haf the tendancy to think or getting stressed out for hours..i shud relax more..i try..i can..but i usually dont..

watched transformers a few days ago...it was excellent..well to me perhaps..cars, violence, hot girls..any guys dream..haha..recently started reading harry potter again..just refreshing my memory on the coming movie..cant wait..

and to u..the sweetest human being ive ever met..i luv u loads..for everything u've ever done for me..i noe im rather lacking but i promise it will change.. (--,)

silhouettes of the night..

put it behind you..

2007-06-24T23:17:00.000+08:00

I hope all my days

Will be lit by your face
I hope all the years
Will hold tight our promises

I don't wanna be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don't wanna be old and feel afraid

I need a place
That's hidden in the deep
Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
Though all the world is broken

I need a place
Where I can make my bed
A lover's lap where I can lay my head
Cos now the room is spinning
The day's beginning

My body's deteriorating..really..i dunno wats hapeening..my hair is dropping..i've got athlete's foot..arrgghh!! and i thought i was the healthy one..but at least i've got sumone taking care of me (--,) anyways dat was a real long break i took..i really needed it..as usual u learn sumting everyday..so i've learnt ALOT of things dis past months..

anyways..im proud to say i haf great frens..but some people dont see it that way..but u've got to noe u haf to haf alot of patience to be with them..but some people break faster than us..thats why most of us has been together for a very2 long time...we have tolerated each other for so long, in the end we became closer..i can say they are like my brothers..

some of our good frens i see have started spending less time with us..some totally dont want to haf anything with us..are we really dat bad to leave us just like dat..after everything we haf gone through together..dont u think any of it could be cherished as a really wonderful time u had with us? i was surprised..really..

the pic on top is a picture of a lamp my dad brought home which i put in my room..its really nice at night..it sets in u in a mood..especially if ur listening to a song like this..

(haha im sorry min! but this pic is just priceless)

My one and only..

Well pictures speak for itself..so i dont haf to post any captions..haha lazy lah..

This post is totally random..and i noe most of my frens could care less abt my blog but oh well..a silent fresh start..haha..

lights and pills..

2007-04-16T01:12:00.000+08:00

it was a cold night..
rain was pouring non stop..
as my bus came to the bus stop,
the doors open and i started to shiver thanks to the coldness of the air condition..
as i look for a comfortable place to sit,
looking at everyone in the bus sleeping..
the only thing i could felt was to feel sleepy too..
as i sat down..
the windows were all fogged up because of the coldness..
everything outside was blurry..
the only things visible were the lights of the street and all the passing vehicles..
and all could hear was the music pumping from my mp3 into the earphones into my ears..
the smell of her hair made me so confortable, cozy and warm..
if only i could smell it all day..
but it would only last for that bus journey only..
i start to lean my head against the cold window..
i wanted my eyes to go to rest..
but instead my eyes started to get watery..
im not sure wether they were tears of tiredness or sadness..
but then the music i was listening was telling me..
'that's one thing i would have never say to you..'
and it made me realise there was a connection..
but before i could figure anything out,
my stop was here..
i had to get down..
and till now it still remains a mystery to me..
what it was or what it meant..
but i noe dat everything happens for a reason..
hopefully a good one..

my blog will be on hiatus for awhile..dont ask me why..but that's what my gut is telling me to do..to keep it low with the outside world..

Shoulders, toes & knees..im 36 degrees..

2007-03-22T14:46:00.000+08:00

I was looking for a job and then i found one..n god knows im miserable now..
Two lovers entwined pass me by..n god knows im miserable now..
In my life i wonder why i give valuable time to people who dont care if i live or die..
Im my life why do i smile at people who i much rather kick in the eye?

The sea wants to take me..
The knife wants to slit me..
Do u think u can help me?

Its so easy to love
Its so easy to hate
But it takes strength to be gentle and kind..

Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere,
I dont care..
Driving in your car
I never want to go home..
Cos if a double decker bus crashes into us,
To die by ur side is such a heavenly way to die..
If a ten tonn truck kills the both of us,
To die by ur side well the pleasure the privilege is mine..

There is a light that never goes out..

History will never be erased
You were a great companion...

i've heard it all before..

2007-03-21T14:52:00.000+08:00

i feel guilty sometimes..bcos i noe ive dont alot of sins..n i actually still am..but i cant stop..its a habit...i feel guilty for not praying for soo long..really..i want to but satan is always there trying to stop me..but at least i always remember god..

truth..

women are powerful...especially to men..haizz..

paparazzi shot..haha

water streaming out..

haha..dunno wat to say..

abg army..

Baik...

missing wak..

baik fbb! haha

mat rempit..

roy..

time to go chillin!

i see two people with the same sweaters..

the hottest model ever..

ridin dirty outside vivo..

makan!..

boy steam habis..

hmmm..

chillin at our old spot..esplanade..

high...

me n tot...

peace out..

some stranger was sleeping so it was time for us to take pics...hahaha

baik ni lagi satu peace out...haha

chalet's comin soon...even more pictures going to be uploaded..so stay tuned..

morissey is my hero..

2007-03-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

yes finally the add image link is back!..haha

i was sooo busy this past few days or weeks..haha i dunno its been how long since i updated..but at least i try k..its always been about work or school everytime..im just so tired..but school's almost over..ive got my final exam dis friday..and i have yet to study bcos its freakin difficult ar..its safe to say that im back to skating regularly again..its the one thing i look forward to everytime after work or school..or anything in fact..i dont really haf much to say rite now so i'll upload alot of pics of all the events that passed by.. =)

haizz ok the stupid add image link has got bugs..so i cant upload through there..looks like its gonna be the long way..

to the movies here we come!!

hee..

jiwang pa?!

a nyonya wanted to take a picture wif me..so i did..

mata steam kepe boi pizza??

ngantok pa omar?

geylang here we come!!

planning has to be done before going to geylang..

boncet pa boi?

korek lagi korek!

boy steam no.2..

ermmm??

sap mcm grand entrance jek..

geylang chicanos...

fuh betul nye joget ni mamat..

towning pa?

group photo..

gaytion

taka pa?

smile pls..

menyebs je boy boncet..haha

fuh boi pro..haha tafsiran..

nike sb..

guppy gup flying..

sapig flying...

lempar tu batu!

trying to get out of the zoo..

perangai lemang sak..haha

perangai manga..

fuh 360 flip siot...

badot chicano..

yes there was a com..

it was the vans sk8 com...

apek giving the peace out..haha

a'an..

haizan still fly..

wan sperm haus..

jerry n mai..

everybody look to ur left pls..

haizan warming up fau for da com..

chipmunkois..

lets look at our competition shall we..

headless bom..

bo cui sak WAHAHAHA...

so here are the oversized pics for ur viewing pleasure..haha!!
yeah well dat pretty much sums up everything for today..till then stay safe..bawa moto baik2 ye..haha..k bye...

loveless..

2007-02-26T01:57:00.000+08:00

as i sit there having a smoke during my break at work, a guy who works at my place too came to smoke too..he was indian but understood n spoke malay..so i asked him..how old r u? he said he was 24..then i asked, so u finished ur ns? he then went blank n was like "ns?" ...he then said he was actually malaysian..oh so dats why..so he works full time and earns around 1200 sgd per month..that may not seem much...but thanks to dat he owns a terrace and a car..he's happily married too at a young age of 24..i was just so amazed by that..really..if like 1200 sgd is enough to buy all those stuff in singapore, wow i bet we all wud own a personal house just for fun.. how i wished it was dat easy..i cud see he was happy wif his life..ok maybe except for the 6 hours he spends everyday to travel from johor to singapore...n how i want that kind of life..minus the travelling part of cos..

ermm okay so how do i post pictures using the new blogger? i dont see a post picture icon anywhere in the screen..someone help?

love actually is everywhere..

2007-02-22T16:50:00.000+08:00

I suddenly feel lost again..im stuck..im out of luck..i need to get my life back on track..ive got soo many goals n dreams n i feel im doing nothing about it..theres so may things i wanna achieve but instead i slack about doing nothing.. i dont haf time to think about my problems because i keep on helping too much of other peoples problems n helping them when i shud be the one trying to help myself..its not that im being selfish or anything but some people just depend on me too much..i dun mind being there for sumone but sumtimes too much can be really too much..i noe iv got quite a number of frens who i can seek advice for or who can lend a helping ear but i just dont like to share it cos i dun like people to worry about it (if they do that is)...

time is my enemy..when u need it its never there..

one day maybe i will love again..love that never dies..in the great words of the legendary morissey..'i am human n i need to be loved..just like everybody else does'...

i finally updated bcos i skipped school today..i was just too tired..i had work yesterday from 8pm to 3am..but reached home at around 4+..i just couldnt wake up just now..n i have work again later from 8 to 3 again..sometimes i just wonder why the hell do i have to work..haizz..and i cant go out with u guys dis saturday bcos of work..my fucked up supervisor didnt let me change shifts..oh well just hope that next week she would really follow my constraints..and it woud be just fine..

kelly watch the stars..

2007-02-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

hey2!..so lately this week ive been working everyday after skool..so its been really tiring..but i made some new frens of cos..n of cos more girl frens..as in frens only lar..haha..n im actually attracted to one of them..really..her eyes were just wow..punyelah sek..haha..and shes damn cute lar..but i think shes abit taller than me..but at the end of the day found out she was attached...wat a big bummer.. =( oh well..maybe i cud flirt abit..hehe..

so today i had no work but there was school..but bcos of work yesterday i was really tired..so yup no school for me too..haha..and i woke up really2 late..

oh yah n todays valentines day too...eventhough its more of a christian celebration, its still a good time to go out n spend time wif ur loved one..too bad im spending it alone dis yr.. =(

anyways tmr im working till 1am...1am siot! WAH...haizz..at least got free cab ride home..

so here are some pics from last saturday..

wah abg ni makan betul nye concentrate nampak..haha

muke monyet kat blakang..haha

haha just look at the background...

oh yah i cut my hair already..haha the hairstyle abit like brian molko's old hairstyle..

//protege moi//

2007-02-08T02:38:00.000+08:00

i was supposed to haf school today but i was really lazy to go so i stayed at home..n slept more of cos..so i wake up around 3..did nothing much but download all the albums by placebo..haha..almost 300+MB of songs in just one day..and also other nice songs too..all thanx to multiply for da fast downloads..

then i realised its been awhile since i exercised..haha ok lah not really dat long ar but yesterday played football..but to me i felt like i wasnt as active as how i used to be..its like everyday i had to do sumting which made me sweat..so i decided to go cycling! haha..so from my house i cycled all the way to jurong point, den i cycled back to my area where i den cycled to taman jurong..haha den back home i went..

after all dat exercise, had a nice bath, had my dinner and just chilled out by the com and listened to my freshly downloaded songs..i den started to delete my bro's stuff on the com cos it was taking space n he doesnt even live here anymore so gdbye files..but i stumbled upon an old picture..a picture of my mum , dad , sis n brother..and it certainly was a picture taken before i was born..but it was nice to see a picture back in the old day..

anyways the picture was edited by my brother..

totally random pic..haha

anyways u guys take care n stay safe..

meow meow..

2007-02-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

i had soo much fun dis past few days..it seems like everything in my life is going so smoothly and i hope it will last..still got a few more project to finish fir school den exams den its da holidays!.. so currently im at prac 6 already..waiting for my riding theory test..den after dat can book my prac 6..den 7 den 8 den TP den im done!! just a few more to go..

so yesterday went to my grandma's house at yishun..been awhile since ive been there..n i miss my grandma alot..see gd grandson rite..haha..so after dat met the guys at cineleisure to go watch a movie..watched the unseeable..it was not really scary but alot of shocking moments..haha alot of suspense..i still can remember the time amin screams..haha sooo funny sak! just couldnt stop laughing..bcos me, bom n amin were the usual scaredy cats at horror movies..but instead we all dared to not close our eyes..haha especially when it came to those scary parts we were like OMG OMG OMG...haha seriusly funny sak..at the end of the movie me n amin hati dah lemah..haha..

so we then took the last train home back to jurong east..bom, mantot, roy n me were going to sleep at shai's house..met up wof zu before dat so we were the ones sleeping there..but once i started to get sleepy at shais house, i realised i had a bike practical in the morning so i went home instead..

anyways, singapore is getting so windy and cold this past few weeks..i cant sleep wif my fan on..haha..its too cold lar..but its nice having abit of cold weather instead of the usual sorching heat..

tmr gonna skip skool cos i got work training tmr at 11am..peh leceh nak kene pakai black polo, black pants n black leather shoes..

oh yah so i'll just post some pics of yesterdays outing..

at ljs cine..

weee! haha

gay bois..

if only everyone wore white..would haf been much more cooler..

muke mintak kene dickslap eh ni budak..

and we used to always chill at ljs milennia walk..haha now we do it at cineleisure..

going back home..was a blast..haha really...

piggy boi...

a really2 gayish model shot..

model2 di luar train..haha

shiny..

shiny also..

mat2 rempit..

relieved..

2007-01-28T02:48:00.000+08:00

wooo yes i finally haf enuf money to finish up my bike license!! weee..but yet i still havent paid my hp bills..so this tuesday i haf a job interview..haha i wont tell u where im working..cos i dun wan people to see me working..haha..

bit by bit my school workload is slowly thinning..still haf the photoshoot project and also the website project to finish..i think my exams are coming soon...haha i really dunno actually..but i hope i can do well..but mostly of cos the marks are from the projects i do and i must say im quite satisfied wif my projects..

so the program i use to upload pics is down..is dead actually..so i cant upload pics wif ease..which means less pics to upload..but anyways i'll try upload some pics the normal way aite..

i need help btw..thanks to my itchy hands i squeezed a pimple..and it has left a scar there..kinda like a dark spot..its really irritating sak..anyone noe wat i can do!?!?! kalau tak obvious sgt takpe tau..but its like showing up in every pic i take nowadays..so thats a bad thing..some asked me to try whitening cream but im not sure it will work..maybe it will..but i dunno..sumone buy for me can? haha

waiting for the train..

muke steam siot..haha

on a usual sat nite..

haha i realise i dont haf dat many pics..haha i want my camera back.. =( my fav toy..

so guess wat..i was told to become my teachers assistant photographer dis monday bcos of sumone from ite coming etc2 bla2..but the reason why he chose me was kinda shocking actually..haha..he told me i had a photographers eye..hehe lalala..apparently he saw some of the pics i took and said i take really nice photographs..and he was willing to help me build my photography skills..yay! so i haf to bring some good photos ive taken in the past and show him so he can help me build on it..

anyways im getting sleepy..i dunno wat im gonna do tmr..i wanna go out..but i dun wanna go anywhere far..ard here can? if not sit at home lah.. =\

Sinking Hearts..

2007-01-24T23:19:00.000+08:00

i really want to update dis blog..really..but its either i dont haf anything to say or i just dont haf the time..haha..i just feel guilty for those who check my blog hoping to find something new to read but ends up getting disappointed..hehe..and i really haf nothing to say rite now except wasssaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!! haha..k maybe its time for me to upload some new pics aite..

so my dad just came home from indonesia..haha bodek2 time..and so i went.."hey dad its not any longer that im gonna finish my license"..haha and all he did was smile..and i really hope dat smile meant something..haha..cos i really2 hope he buys me a bike..(prays hard)..

oh yah happy bday mambo! sap da enrol siot..abg kr tak lama lagi..haha

its everything i have..

2007-01-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

Those doors won't open up for you, not now not anymore
You're not the person that you used to be
You light a cigarrette and say that it won't satisfy you, like you just aren't satisfying me
What can I do?
What can I say to you to try and figure out whatever's on your mind?
I think there's something I'm supposed to see

Read me that open book that I've been waiting for so long
You checked it out while checking out with me
What will I do?
What will I say?
Been here before, each and every day
Who let you just run away?

Its been awhile..i want to post new pictures but i just really dont haf the time...
Theres sumthing i wanna say to someone..
Until now u still dont get it isit?..
its no one's fault but yours..
think hard of why all those events happenned..
but u just dont seem to realise it huh..
haizz..im sick n tired already...

hey fee hope u doin alrite k..i wished i could stay longer to talk to u but i already had plans..really sorry for ur loss..

i really haf to clean my room again..and im really lazy..real lazy..

i feel dead today..i dunno..i kinda feel my sundays are like my alone time day...just chillin out alone..rotting..but also reflecting..but i wished my sundays were like how they were used to last time..

so nothing to do i watched two new episodes of the oc when i woke up n seriusly the oc is becoming sooooo boring..no wonder fox decided to cancel the show..after dat i watched n old movie called what dreams may come..its a nice movie where they show the life after ur human life..n a really touching one too..the movie is also more of a suggestion, an analogy, of how precious life is, and how deep the bond of love is between some people, no matter what happens.

actually i think i do need to stop posting alot of pictures cos its lagging my com..and also thanx to the new version of internet explorer it became even slower..

so i've got school tmr at 8..during dat i haf to remember to call kinokuniya for a job interview..after that plan to go to bbdc and top up my account..maybe book a practical too..and just hang out wif frens till late..

and on tuesday ive got a councelling session and if i've got the time i need to go to outram to go pay my fine..and if i booked my practical it would most probably be today, and i also haf football wif the guys..n i also haf to attend a kenduri at arse house cos his grandma just passed away recently..and im gonna haf to skip skool thanx to the may stuff i haf to do..haizz..

see how bz my days are..sigh...and im gonna haf to sleep early if im gonna get the chance to wake up early tmr morning for skool..

i dont really like ska anymore..maybe abit..but not soo much..

and i haf yet to clean my room today bcos my mind keeps wandering somewhere else..

so till then remember to say i love u to ur loved ones before u get out of the house..
gd nite everyone..

spare me if u please...

2006-12-30T03:35:00.000+08:00

really hating the internet connection dis past few days...damn slow siot..

so firstly for those who havent noe yet..im taking my bike license!! finally!! already finished all my theory lessons..im currently at practical 1.3..

so today had my prac 1.3..it was at 12..i was suppose to wake up at 10..and the nite before i already put my alarm clock..i actually remember waking up at 10..den turning off the alarm..den decided to rest my eyes abit..skali bangun kul 11.20..wa dat part kancheong already..quickly took a bath, changed, asked mom for cab money den out i go..so at the bus stop met pejah..hey sori couldnt chat..late already =)..reached bbdc at 11.50..just nice..so go toilet den take prac..

conclusion..i failed sak!! arrgghh!! the instructor said my riding posture was wrong..bcos i was like really sleepy..haha..den i sometimes wobble abit when i stop and go off..abe da reggae nak buat apa..haha..and also he said i was sometimes slow..wah ni part tak leh accept..i was like riding around 40-50 km/h not enuff ah? so need to top up soon and do it again..and i'll speed alrite..

so after prac saw bom at bbdc too..he was taking his revision..wei glove kasi balik eh..

went home chilled for awhile den went to sk8 at fountain wif munk..skate around for awhile den most of da time sit n chat..

went home at 7.15 den chill sumore den go out again..haha..had an outing wif the hideout crew..it was me, razif, zai, hadi, wawan, alfa...we went to cdans..which is now called home team NS..such a crappy name..supposed to play laser quest den bowling..but laser quest was closed already so played bowling..before dat went to eat at alif..arse met us later den off we bowl..

played 3 games..first zai won..2nd i won =) hehe..3rd alfa won..it was almost 2+ by den..so back home we all went..

somebody who can recommend me any jobs please tell me..i really need to find one..PLS!!!..

i still fill lonely..all my frens say dat u can live without girls..but to me its different ar..i can live without girls but still theres an empty feeling inside..just dat sumone who u can show ur love n concern (other than ur parents or siblings of cos) ...and also da feeling of being loved..

one

2006-12-25T16:43:00.000+08:00

no other words to say..chill at taka..drink at coffeshop..party at zouk!

2006-12-25T16:42:00.001+08:00

smile for da camera!

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bom muke mintak kene bantai..haha

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jiggijig

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budak2 tiger..

2006-12-25T16:40:00.001+08:00

dragois!

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wooo

2006-12-25T16:39:00.001+08:00

stussy boys.. =)

2006-12-25T16:39:00.000+08:00

party people!

2006-12-25T16:38:00.001+08:00

yamseng!

2006-12-25T16:38:00.000+08:00

apek joget maut siot..haha

2006-12-25T16:37:00.001+08:00

ajam da mabok..

2006-12-25T16:37:00.000+08:00

me n fau

2006-12-25T16:36:00.000+08:00

wooo!

2006-12-25T16:35:00.000+08:00

party people!

1st day of genting

2006-12-25T16:28:00.001+08:00

so had to wake up really2 early today..took da train to lavender..met syafiq..den off we went to go take the bus..we reached there just in time..but i was sweating like mad..haha..so during the bus ride..most of the time i was sleeping..and by the time we reached genting weee..we were all so excited..our room just for the first day was with syafiq, jialiang, kleaven n xinyi..we all slept together..haha..
the most suprising thing was dat when i woke up..everyone said i moan in my sleep..OMG...haha malu sak..wow i moan in my sleep..hmm nice...haha..well eventhough its just da first day..i miss my mum very much..

2006-12-25T16:27:00.001+08:00

computer people..

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computer people..

2006-12-25T16:26:00.001+08:00

in the bus..

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we haf reached our destination

2006-12-25T16:25:00.001+08:00

cable cars through the clouds..

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jaafar!

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at the lobby..

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cak..

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boi syafiq..haha

2006-12-25T16:22:00.001+08:00

me n jiajia

2006-12-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

practice..

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practice..

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practice..

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practice..

2006-12-25T16:20:00.001+08:00

red eyes!

2006-12-25T16:20:00.000+08:00

haha before sleep take picture..

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taken while i was asleep..

2nd day of genting

2006-12-25T16:12:00.000+08:00

so today we had to check out n check in again to different rooms..to top it off we had the qualifying rounds today also..so i practice hard..but once i got on stage...holy shit..i could just pee in my pants lar..so many people siol! 100+ at least ok ar im used to dat..but dis is like a LOT more..people looking at you from the front, sides, and also the tops..arrrgghhH! ok so i played like shit for my 4a division..but i did quite ok for my 1a since i already knew how the crowd was by dat time..n i look at everyone..almost everyone made alot of mistakes..dunno ar...the pressure for dis yr is just really alot..haha..so cheng also came today..bcos he had ns..and syafiq had the worst day of his life..haha he lost ALOT of things..poor him..haha..

2006-12-25T16:11:00.001+08:00

the morning view from my hotel floor...

2006-12-25T16:11:00.000+08:00

all yoyo players time to check in!

2006-12-25T16:10:00.000+08:00

yutaro wif his bling watch

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frens..

2006-12-25T16:09:00.000+08:00

waiting for food..

2006-12-25T16:08:00.000+08:00

getting ready to go on stage..(including me)

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ian n dimi

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judges//

2006-12-25T16:06:00.000+08:00

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sap lihao da fierce ar..haha

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kelenjar setan

2006-12-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

boi setan!

2006-12-25T16:03:00.001+08:00

urano!

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mori!

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chillin2

3rd day of genting

2006-12-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

so today iskandar finally came to genting at 5 am in the morning..we were all still sleeping at dat time so...there he was left stranded all alone..haha..when he finally got in he already started his crap..haha..so me n jialiang went to take a bath at hans and ian's room bcos of our stupid bathroom no hot water...after all dat we went down for the first day of freestyles..really fun watching everyone play..and it seriusly made me realise how i slack so badly during these past few years..i was one of the top learners n inventers last time..but now da gone..so time to get serius..so we went back to our rooms early..we just chill out..and we actually slept really2 early..but i just cant get to sleep..so i decided to go haf a nite walk..i put on my sweater took the room key and out i go..

first stop..obviously starbucks of cos! bought a caramel frapp and there i go walking around the shopping mall..sit with some yoyo players..den i went to go sit at the big stairs near the theme park entrance..while i was sitting there enjoying a smoke..i couldnt help but notice a couple walking by my side..they den walk down the stairs and they were standing there beside the roller coaster enjoying the really2 cold breeze..it was really foggy...den they both hugged..haizz..i miss dat feeling...i really do..the feeling of being hugged n loved..so i just watched them for awhile..just being jealous..den i just walked away..slowly i walked to my hotel..took the lift..then walk back to my room..open the door..put my stuff..wash my leg..off to bed i went with that loneliness feeling..

2006-12-20T17:03:00.001+08:00

its so freezing cold..

2006-12-20T17:03:00.000+08:00

lets see how they play..

2006-12-20T17:02:00.001+08:00

sap dopers...haha muke is gayish..

2006-12-20T17:02:00.000+08:00

what we ate at kenny rogers..